Most of my black friends didn't like it, however they didn't even notice it...which surprised me.
I tried a wash and go, and i think i need a better gel, since this gll left my hair feeling SO dry. Anyways, no one said anything bad, four of my friends thought it was cute, however some people didn't like it.Oh well. I love it!!!I am so much happier, lighter, and WAY MORE ENERGETIC.
I was like, skipping in the hall and jumping on my friends and stuff.
Nothing bothers me.
Nothing agytated me.
Everything was just a breeze.
It was like being on Morphine.
Wow.
I was way too lazy when I got home to bother even taking photos of myself, but I will when I get home tonight from night school. I can't wait for it to grow, I was surprised by the length anyway though...they were all surprised. The lady said "woah, you're hair is thick, and there is SO much! You'd be a WICKED dredlock!"
I don't know what exactly that means but, whateves.
I didn't even care what people on the street thought about my hair, i mean, i was wearing a hat, but you could still see the front of my hair. There was a dude, who also follows my youtube vids, and he already knew i was doing it. He's the type of person who you don't know if he's serious or he's sarcatic. I'm one of those people too, but at least i tell you later wether i was joking or not. Anyway, so he kept making a BIG deal and telling me to take off my hat, making it look like i didn't like it and blah blah blah, and acting like the whole BC thing was something meaningles. I mean, I know it is just hair but STILL...I have never had short hort hair before. So it was a serious thing. Whatever, i just ignored him, honestly...i don't have the time to explain why and how it is SO extremely important. A lot of people asked me why, and i just said "long story, if you really really want to know, search why relaxer isn't healthy(or damages black hair) for black hair". Geeezzzzus!
Anywho...
THESE ARE THE PHOTOS OF THE BIG CHOP!!!
...
Well actually they're coming...
just later on tonight when i take these photos.
Haha.
S'later!
<333
-Sharz
It's happening today, I have to keepgiving myself pep-talk though.
Like, I don't know. I'm pretty apathetic about it though...like i want to cut it, and I really don't care what most people think, but at the same time I do care cause...well. I don't even know why I care. I have looked for some BIG CHOP videos, and I was applying for jobs yesterday, andi thought..."I hope that whole natural hair vs. the workforce isn't so true." I mean, i'm not going to go relaxing my hair now, it's just...
I don't know, I'm scared about life, since I know it will change after i do this.
I was thinking about all the worst case scenarios...
My Friends won't like it.
No Guys will like it.
I'll look like my father.
It'll make my face look fat.
I'll look like my grandma...especially when I put on my glasses
However, i was remembering what I talked about one Monday in February.
http://shariebelleemancipation.blogspot.com/2009/02/monday-monday-monday-morning-and.html
This is part of my own EMANCIPATION.
I wanted to be free of the crazy shit that is perm.
I am so going to be late for school, however...I am doing my big chop today, and i am not turning back. Thirty dollars.
ITS NOT ABOUT THEM.
ITS ABOUT ME.
I AM SO TIRED!
...
Ok. this was pointless. Basically, I'm dying from nervousness...
But im going to remember what I said in January. Yes. January as well.
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In the Shari.EBELLE Emancipated blog, i will post pictures of my hair and hair styles and how im doing with my hair and what products im using. But /i cannot do that until I get my camera.
So until then you are going to have to deal with these picture-less blogs.
Now I don't know what my issue is nowadays...
I'm getting really ROOTSy lately. Im all up in REAL hip-hop, all up in my ethnicity and being a black woman, really empowering myself and Liberating myself not being stuck behind the bars of the mainstream black women and just being me, as always, but to a fuller extent.
That was one of the reasons why i made this blog. This is mostly about me realizing that I am ME.
But the only way to be ME is to LOVE me.
And the only way to LOVE me is to be NATURALLY and AUTHENTICALLY me.
I have had a long dicussion with myself about this....and there is no other way.
This has to happen, it is Up and Running. SHARIFA'S EMANCIPATION is IN MOTION.
My Life's EMANCIPATION is in motion.
The world is changing.
And I'm changing with it.
Changing from a molded sculpture that someone else would like me to be, to being the magnificent piece of ART that I can create ON
MY OWN.
-exhales-
Yeah sorry about that.
Sometimes i have these weird bursts of self-replenishment and I need to let it all out.
I don't care if people don't like it, because it's nappy, and not bone striahgt like everyone else.
I mean, they should know, im never going to do what other people do. i am just like that...
So in as a concluding statement:
Im Still Fly freestyle - Drake
I'm still fly.
S'later.
<33
-Sharz
(in case the link doesnt work: SMOKEY EYE DIY
Although, I don't wear make-up,( unless its a bit of mascara on days when I feel I need an ego-boost, which is rare..haha.) I have been gaining an interest in make-up a lot more lately...I don't know why....
I also wish I had MAD SKILLSZSZ and talent to make my own clothes...
Like Chanel, from junkprints: http://www.flickr.com/photos/junkprints/
check out her blog, which is awesome http://www.dookyblog.com/
Did I mention shes natural, in fact she has LOCS.
I love he works and wish I could be THAT GOOD. I just alter my clothing, but I cant actually CREATE something. =[
I also found some WICKED inspiration today...on essence magazine's site:
http://photos.essence.com/galleries/hair_repair_from_relaxed_to_natural
There is some CRAZY inspiration there, besides she is rocking a 4b or 4c looking TWA, which is hell of a lot of inspiration for me. Also, there is some really good information on how to care and treat natural hair, that I didn't know about.
For example did you know, conditioner actually isn't too great for our hair, and instead we should use essential oils. Check that link out, for reals.
s'laters!
<33
-Sharz.
"You think you live by yourself?!"
"What?"
She sits at the edge of my bed, in order to get a better look at me, so she can give me a proper 'What-the-bumbo-rassclot' look.
"Grandma..." I attempt to reassure her, "I'm not going to go bald or anything, Im just cutting off the permed ends."
She looks worried.
"Oh. So did you tell you're father?"
"Yes I did Grandma."
"What did he say?"
"He said 'good'." Pause. "I told my mom too, and she's alright with it. She told me to shape it."
My Grandma shuffled around in her spot, but I couldn't see her, since by this time I covered my face with my Green blanket in order to block my eyes from the light. Heyzeus meng. It's too early to go into this. "Alright. Fine. Its not me, its your parents who should know.."
Yeah. Right. So if I just went and did my Big Chop without her knowing, it would be okay?
NOPE. She'd get even MORE pissed off, so I don't know why she gave me that B.S.
Well, she's all good. I told her its on Tuesday, I gave her the card so she knows the location.
ANYWAY...
I'm just here looking for photos...
If anyone can...
please help me find some photos of haircuts, cause I need to show them a photo...so that they understand what I'm saying...
=[
S'later!
-Sharz
well, not exactly.
See what I did was to give a bit more preparation for what I was meant to do, but couldn't do at that very moment.
Thirty Dollars isn't bad for a cut.
I MADE THE APPOINTMENT.
If you go to : strictlyroots.ca you'll see where I'm going to go get it done. Its a 10 minute walk away from my mom's house, so ... i thought I would ch-ch-ch-ch-check it out.
The people were nice, not EXTREMELY FRIENDLY though, I could tell they were all conscious dreds...everyone in there had dreds. I felt....out of place. haha. But My appointment is 07.04.09.
Yeah.
I don't know what I was thinking...but I can't jump out of it now....
The gay dude, who was REALLY GAY but not girly, just with attitude, was like "oh...since December? You're hair's going to be really short..." I said : "I don't really care, it's okay...really."
Thev owner, or assistant manager (cause she seemed as if she owned the place) smiled at me, and was like "Alright."
So they have my name.
Number.
And I have thier card.
Its goin's down.
I'm sort of nervous...
But most people say I look good with low hair.
I'm still scared though.
-sigh-
I'm going to go to school soon, just had to get that off my chest.
S'laters!
<33
-Sharz
"Wow, sharifa's bringing it back in a weird new way...i really like it!"
"thanks..." I'm very awkward with compliments.
"Its so good that you can be comfy with your hair like that, I wish I could do that but...no I could never!"
I felt the need to go through this whole lecture with her, but instead I smiled since I was way too tired to get into it. However, I'll catch her on Monday and we'll have a good talk about why Natural Hair ROCKS.
Also, a lot of dudes at school LOVE it. One guy (he's spanish but likes to think he can pull off for a black dude, and he kind of can....a lightskinned one.) said:
"Wow, sharifa your hair is SO wicked! Is it all natural?"
"Not exactly, no..."
Then he asked my school mate, who perms her hair all the time, and pin straghtens it...
"Why don't you do that?"
"Nigga-naps!? Haha, oh no. I can't do it. Want me to look MAD!?!"
"You don't have to call them that. Why can't you just say Naps? I like Sharifa's. Can i feel?"
I let him feel the roots, since that was where all the reall naps were, they are thick by the way...
"Wow, thats so cool. Why do black girls want straight hair, and white girls want curly hair....everyone should just stick thier own thing. I love black peoples hair...i wish i could get mine to cornrow and shit. That would be a dream...."
Then we had a long discussion about wether or not his hair can get braided...
This was on Monday.
Even my teachers liked it, and the secretary, vice-principal.
The list goes on.
So I guess, I'm not completely scared about my natural haor getting accepted...I was scared about my shortness. However, i had a discussion with my step-moom, who cornrowd my hair last night...
"You shouldn;t worry, just cut it all off. You have a nice round hed, so it'll look really good. And yoiu think your hair grows slow, but it is fast growing. If you stop relaxing, which you have, then you should see that."
And I kind of have. My hair is already THICK LIKE A MOFO and hard to FINGER-COMB through. Not because of tangles, because of THICKNESS.
Like, oh em gee. It is really "bad". I haven't been told I have GOOD hair, in a sense of easy-to-manageness. However, I was always told i had great hair cause of the strength and thickness, even when my hair was permed. Ladies were always like:
"Oh, you have beautiful hair child..."
and I would get all quiet and shy but still say "thank you."
My little sister wants to transistion too!
She is cornrowing her hair until the permed ends fall out.
I have a video, that I will post later, of her and her thoughts on hair. She's only 10! I am sooo proud, I have been a role model! I feel like some sort of activist. Haha!
I was also looking at some BIG CHOP vids on Youtube, and I decided I'll post those up later as well. Im at my Dad's house right now though, which so happens to be across the street from my house (Haha, I find it so funny) and I should be back home in an hour, after he comes home from work.
So you'll see everything later!
S'later!
-Sharz <33
(p.s sorry about the spelling mistakes, im sick, tired and hungry)
I am off to Ottawa tomorrow afternoon, and I have not packed, and I do no know how to get the the train station.
-sigh-
I should really get to packing now. My train leaves at 12:10pm. However the train as WiFi connection, so I can document my trip. Too bad Ottawa is BORING.
Honestly like: B-O-R-I-N-GEEE
I was chosen by some teachers (along with another kid, and my exboyfriend) to go, for some youth leaders stuff. Just meeting other student across the country and chill / tour.
My week is thankfully the week of Journalism and Communication.
Since, believe it or not (you may not realize it through my crappy typing) I want to go into the Journalism field.
I'll take pictures and shiz, it'll be like YOU are there with me.
=]
Anywhozzles.
I havent replied to the dude yet, Im going to confront him about this FACE TO FACE.
MAN TO MAN.
errm.
MAN TO WOMAN...
We are BOTH mature individuals, though he may be a little more mature than me at times...but I am more mature than him sometimes too...
whatever. its goins down.
BIG CHOP has been switched from the 23rd to the 19th.
OMG DUUUDES!!!
I am so losing my mind right about know...
I Want You - Fefe Dobson
FEFE DOBSON SHALL MAKE A COMEBACK...
I haven't heard it yet either, this is my first time.
Ok. I'm going to pack...
<333
-Sharz
So this afternoon, while in the library, I wrote him a message, because apparently he thinks i am going around telling people a bunch of shit. Which I am not.
Since he's in Ottawa right now...I decided to send him this message on facebook to read when he gets back:
Hey.
While you were gone, I heard (from a source that will remain unnamed) that you thought (or were definite) that I was the one who told Ms Lomas about the thingy.
I didn’t, and it makes me feel pretty cruddy to have you think that way. The person who told me wanted to confront you about it alone, having me not need to talk to you myself. However, I have decided that I’d prefer to tell you myself, because getting others involved only creates more confusion...as you already know.
So here is my theory on How Ms. Lomas found out:
Before I begin, I want to make it known to you (even though, you probably don’t even care) that I don’t ‘hate’ you. I understand how that could lead you to believe that I told Ms Lomas not to get you. However, I wouldn’t go and tell Ms Lomas some stuff that would stop you from joining us in the trip to Ottawa, even if I did ‘hate’ you, I wouldn’t do such a terrible thing. In fact, believe it or not, I was the one who suggested she go get you.
Shocked? I know. Turns out, I am not as big of a Bitch as you would like to believe I am. Sorry to disappoint you Devaun.
So yeah, I will admit, I DID tell 2 teachers, 1 Guidance and 1 CYW.
How did this happen?
Ms. Sarellas because, during the time we were together, I asked her something that was really bothering me, and I couldn’t quite tell anyone else, because. Well I don’t really know. But whatever, she brought in Ms. Murphy to see her opinion on it, and I allowed it cause, I wanted to know her opinion as well. Anyway, so after we weren’t together anymore she approached me and asked “How are things with you and ...” and I answered the obvious answer. And YES I may have elaborated. But I trusted her with that information.
Ms. Murphy because, one day I was really ticked off about something, and I couldn’t find Ms. Sarellas, so I went to Murphy. If I didn’t talk about this with someone WAY more mature than my friends(especially laila..), I would surely have ended up beating a certain person up. Not you, but it had to do with you . So she gave me a bit a guidance there, and let me vent off to her and I was a tad more calm. Even though i almost threw a chair at Christina’s boyfriend that same day.
.... long story.
My CYW because, she’s my CYW. I am allowed to tell her these things right? Yeah, so I obviously vented to her about a lot of things.
Ms. Orsini. This was the most recent,(all the other ones were like before holidays) I actually had this conversation with her a week before Student Council took over announcements.
She saw me and asked me to come see her a little after third period. So I go see her and she is asking me if it would be okay to have a Male voice on the Announcements, basically suggesting I FIRE Laila. So i say “Sure no problem, It really doesn’t matter.”
“What about Devaun? I know you two are close friends, and you could discuss it with him, and he’d love to join you right?”
“Uh. I guess, but me and him don’t really speak anymore, but I will still run it by him, he’s in my fourth period class so...”
“oh, right. You two used to date ... well I don’t want to put you in that situation and make it uncomfortable for you.”
“Oh, no it’s okay. I’m sure it’s not much of an issue...I can deal with it.”
“No. No. We will have to think of someone else....hm. “
The rest of the conversation is not about you so...moving on.
So I think Ms Lomas found out through Ms Orsini. Ms Sarellas said she found out through Gr. 9s. Ms Murphy said “Oh really?! I didn’t know...” but I had a feeling she knew. Ms. Orsini, already knew as well...and I don’t know how, probably word of mouth as well. Ms. Lomas is out of the loop, so i am sure someone had to inform her.
-sigh-
So there is my theory.
I’m sorry if you thought I was an asshole and told Ms Lomas to avoid going to you or something, cause I really didn’t. I am not like that at all. I thought you, out of all people, would know that, but I guess I was wrong. You really don’t know me AT ALL.
P.S
I don't Hate you. I don't bad mouth you & try to tarnish your image.
I’ve heard that you think I do. Which I don’t, by the way...
I'm not talking to you because, as much as I don't even want to have to share this with you, I know it MUST be done in order to get things at least A LITTLE cleared up (arrg, I'm going to be SO angry when I send this, besides I have written this 5 times already, cause my computer is GAY).
I really don’t know.... you kind of stopped talking to me first, so I felt that you didn’t want to talk to me at all. So, I decided to not talk to you too. Besides that, you did something that really ticked me off, and I couldn’t confront you about it, so in frustration I decided to childishly stop talking to you.
I’m SO EXTREMELY over it now though, i mean...Its ridiculous how OVER it I really am.
But yeah, I really wouldn't mind just staying friends with you, I don't know about you, but I'm not holding any grudges. This isn’t me desperately trying to be friends with you either, cause I have a little TOO many friends, and sometimes I wish I didn’t have so many...(especially when Bday parties come around...oh god.). I just wanted you to know at AT LEAST 5% of whats going on. I would tell you face to face, honestly, i hate sending messages....But, I thought this was the safest way of saying what’s on my mind, without saying too much...cause I tend to ramble, like I am sort of doing now.
If you feel like you might want to talk about this some more and know the other 95%, it’s all good, I’ll talk about it. If you still don’t want to talk to me, it’s all good...I mean, I’m just glad I got this out of my system.
So...yeah.
I’m gonna go now...
Hope you had a great trip!
=]
-Sharifa.
I did it.And I honestly did'nt even give a damn. I really was just like "SEND" and didn't even think
about anything but the fact that I would feel so much better know that he knows 5% of the truth.
I feel a lot better.
OH MY GOSH.
Im nearing my BC and I'm kind of scared...But I have searched more and more naturals in the BIZ to kep me a bit more motivated.
Geez. The suspense is killing me.
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Lady (Hear Me Tonight) - Modjo
ANOTHER FEEL GOOD SONG!!
your kiss is on ma list...
because your kiss.
your kiss is on MY list.
BECAUSE YOUR KISS IS ON MY LIST....
Your Kiss Is On My List - Hall & Oats
Okay, thats out of my system.
That is a GOTdamn feel good song peoples!
I don't know what happened but, today I am just so extremely effing HAPPY.
Maybe it is because i have around 20 more days until my BIG MOTHERFUCKIN CHOP!!
YEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! so damn excited.
I am like rolling on the floor from excitement, and already making a shopping list of shit im going to buy. The pharma plus beside my school carries a shit load of Burt's Bees shit, and imma buy some of that crap friday.
SO EXCITED.
But then again, im scared, because every time I do something, there is a slight set back.
Hopefully that doesn't happen this time. Hmm, i kind of lost count by two days or so...but no matter, 20 days sounds a little accurate.
Now on to some stuff I want to get off my chest...
EXCUSE ET MOI if i come off as a bitch but.
I FRICKEN HATE LIVING WITH FAT PEOPLE!!!!!!!!
And before you go off on me.
Let me explain why.
I do not enjoy living with fat people because they are GREEDY. They eat off everything, and the only way you can get you share of food is if you are the first one to dish out your serving. Cause if you don't get there first, you motherfuckiing lose.
I hate that, cause I don't really enjoy eating the food right away, i like to give it time to settle first, and get cool. But NO, cause by the time that happens i get downstairs and bitches already ate almost 98% of the damn DINNER.
Like what zee eff.
im going to go eat now.
LOVE&PEACE&FRESHAIR.
<333
-Sharz
Okay.
So, I was scrolling around for more natural models and such. Reflecting on my previous post on mainstream media and natural women or men. So if you all do not know, Amber Rose is that bald-headed chick from Luda's music video "I Know What Dem Girls Like" featuring woman-beater Chris Brown.
ANYWAYS...
So i was on some site called The Rap Up, and specifically on http://therapup.uproxx.com/2009/01/amber-rose-is-not-an-android.html. When I came across a few comments that shocked me: ( i tried to highlight the ones that got my attention)
| 4. | AbCents1983 Says: January 28th, 2009 at 1:48 pm Finally…she might convince some of these women to go natural for once in their lives. She’s sexy regardless of the length of her hair. She gets respect in my book. |
| 5. | HHF Says: January 28th, 2009 at 8:21 pm Gee wilikers!!!!!! |
| 6. | Bravo Says: January 28th, 2009 at 8:43 pm AbCents1983 Says: ^ Word Natural beauty > fake ass broad |
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| 8. | Hip Hop: Greatest Therapy In The World! « AlkaholiK KronikleZ Says: January 28th, 2009 at 11:27 pm [...] If you read this blog religiously thanks and bear in mind that every year I write one gay post and this may be the gayest since the KD* post and don’t expect another one. Since we’re all straight here check this out these pics. I love bald headed women. [...] |
| 9. | k. video Says: January 29th, 2009 at 8:57 am A female would have to rock this look with confidence(I have a magazine article that states the same thing!). As a black male in my early 30s, this chick is sexy…i would scoop her up before most girls with (fake)long hair. She might start a trend…remember Zhane’. |
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| 11. | akaMike Says: February 7th, 2009 at 4:07 pm Man this girl is amazing looking! Short hair is a turn on for me. |
| 12. | Blaqueknight Says: February 9th, 2009 at 12:21 pm Damn. Body for days. Beautiful as hell and blad headed. Is it just me or is this turning anyone else on???… |
I didn't know how accepted natural hair actually was, though it was only like 3 comments, im sure there were probably more if I went to the next page of comments.
I was all like "Wowzers, I cannot believe these men are saying this"
Not that it really matters to me if dudes like it, but you have to admit, it is a tad nerve racking when there are people who may not get that your naturality is a beautiful thing, and criticise you.
<3
ONCE AGAIN...
Naturality in mainstream media.
-Sharz.
My End Of The Semester Grade Boost Regimen.... 2 Texture Traumas...WEEZY WEE...How things are goons downs.
1/15/2009 05:50:00 PM


* Mood:
* Listening to: Breathless by Corinne Bailey Rae
* Reading: n/a
* Eating: n/a
* Drinking: tea.
__________________________
ON MY MIND @ zee MOMENT (besides: ...)
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Ok peeps.
Exams are coming and first semester is coming to an end...your marks have been dropping just a bit, cause your lazy and sort of slacking off. What are you going to do to boost up your marks before exam time?
DO ALL THAT WORK AND HAND IT IN...
Thats what i do, i don't let anything get overdue, and everything that is over due i BEG and PLEAD for the to accept it. That is right.
I got it all planned out...its totally going to work...im about to start on another essay, thats due tomorrow, and then im going to study for a math test i missed and i am going to either ace it or high-B it.
YES I CAN....haha.
at least i'll be happy that i cut off the crap ends! Geez..
Anyways...
My friends are going to the Lil' Wayne concert today, i was suposed to go but...i dont like him enough to spend money to see him in concert...i only like two or three songs and im done.
A milli (its addictive, dont lie)
Crank That Weezy (its so stupid, that i love it for being so .. dumb)
lollipop (addictive)
I rather see someone interesting, like kanye west, common, the roots, n.e.r.d, erykah badu....like artists like those are artists that i am willing to put down a few hours of homework for. Cause those people do not come to Canada often. Which is weird, cause Canada is like...right there.
There's America, then Canada is like right there.
Life is so unfair to Canada.
minus the obvious Pros such as health care and civil rights(gays&lesbians) and so on and so forth.
I think this is will be where my blog posts will lessen from everyday to every other day....cause of exams and such. But next semester, all i have are art courses, minus my fourth period, which is physucs, which i may switch to something else.
My schedule is as follows:
Drama (1st)
Religion Arts// video production (2nd)
Music//Intrumental(3rd)
Physics(4rth)--but i may switch to Gym, im not sure, ill see how i feel about physics
Thats all i seem to have to say right now...
BY THE WAY: 5 followers? chyeahs.
<33
-Sharz!

