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I DID IT!!

Most of my black friends didn't like it, however they didn't even notice it...which surprised me.
I tried a wash and go, and i think i need a better gel, since this gll left my hair feeling SO dry. Anyways, no one said anything bad, four of my friends thought it was cute, however some people didn't like it.Oh well. I love it!!!I am so much happier, lighter, and WAY MORE ENERGETIC.
I was like, skipping in the hall and jumping on my friends and stuff.
Nothing bothers me.
Nothing agytated me.
Everything was just a breeze.

It was like being on Morphine.

Wow.

I was way too lazy when I got home to bother even taking photos of myself, but I will when I get home tonight from night school. I can't wait for it to grow, I was surprised by the length anyway though...they were all surprised. The lady said "woah, you're hair is thick, and there is SO much! You'd be a WICKED dredlock!"

I don't know what exactly that means but, whateves.

I didn't even care what people on the street thought about my hair, i mean, i was wearing a hat, but you could still see the front of my hair. There was a dude, who also follows my youtube vids, and he already knew i was doing it. He's the type of person who you don't know if he's serious or he's sarcatic. I'm one of those people too, but at least i tell you later wether i was joking or not. Anyway, so he kept making a BIG deal and telling me to take off my hat, making it look like i didn't like it and blah blah blah, and acting like the whole BC thing was something meaningles. I mean, I know it is just hair but STILL...I have never had short hort hair before. So it was a serious thing. Whatever, i just ignored him, honestly...i don't have the time to explain why and how it is SO extremely important. A lot of people asked me why, and i just said "long story, if you really really want to know, search why relaxer isn't healthy(or damages black hair) for black hair". Geeezzzzus!

Anywho...
THESE ARE THE PHOTOS OF THE BIG CHOP!!!
...

Well actually they're coming...

just later on tonight when i take these photos.

Haha.

S'later!
<333
-Sharz

Ok.

It's happening today, I have to keepgiving myself pep-talk though.
Like, I don't know. I'm pretty apathetic about it though...like i want to cut it, and I really don't care what most people think, but at the same time I do care cause...well. I don't even know why I care. I have looked for some BIG CHOP videos, and I was applying for jobs yesterday, andi thought..."I hope that whole natural hair vs. the workforce isn't so true." I mean, i'm not going to go relaxing my hair now, it's just...
I don't know, I'm scared about life, since I know it will change after i do this.

I was thinking about all the worst case scenarios...
My Friends won't like it.
No Guys will like it.
I'll look like my father.
It'll make my face look fat.
I'll look like my grandma...especially when I put on my glasses

However, i was remembering what I talked about one Monday in February.
http://shariebelleemancipation.blogspot.com/2009/02/monday-monday-monday-morning-and.html

This is part of my own EMANCIPATION.
I wanted to be free of the crazy shit that is perm.

I am so going to be late for school, however...I am doing my big chop today, and i am not turning back. Thirty dollars.

ITS NOT ABOUT THEM.
ITS ABOUT ME.

I AM SO TIRED!

...

Ok. this was pointless. Basically, I'm dying from nervousness...
But im going to remember what I said in January. Yes. January as well.
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In the Shari.EBELLE Emancipated blog, i will post pictures of my hair and hair styles and how im doing with my hair and what products im using. But /i cannot do that until I get my camera.
So until then you are going to have to deal with these picture-less blogs.

Now I don't know what my issue is nowadays...

I'm getting really ROOTSy lately. Im all up in REAL hip-hop, all up in my ethnicity and being a black woman, really empowering myself and Liberating myself not being stuck behind the bars of the mainstream black women and just being me, as always, but to a fuller extent.

That was one of the reasons why i made this blog. This is mostly about me realizing that I am ME.
But the only way to be ME is to LOVE me.

And the only way to LOVE me is to be NATURALLY and AUTHENTICALLY me.

I have had a long dicussion with myself about this....and there is no other way.
This has to happen, it is Up and Running. SHARIFA'S EMANCIPATION is IN MOTION.

My Life's EMANCIPATION is in motion.
The world is changing.
And I'm changing with it.
Changing from a molded sculpture that someone else would like me to be, to being the magnificent piece of ART that I can create ON
MY OWN.

-exhales-

Yeah sorry about that.
Sometimes i have these weird bursts of self-replenishment and I need to let it all out.
I don't care if people don't like it, because it's nappy, and not bone striahgt like everyone else.

I mean, they should know, im never going to do what other people do. i am just like that...

So in as a concluding statement:

Im Still Fly freestyle - Drake

I'm still fly.

S'later.
<33
-Sharz

Just got a confirmation call from the salon....how ironic. Haha.

Well i just washed my hair and did this cholestorol thing, which doesn't make my hair feel too great...and then i decided to take photos.

I really have always loved the SMOKEY EYE look.


(in case the link doesnt work: SMOKEY EYE DIY

Although, I don't wear make-up,( unless its a bit of mascara on days when I feel I need an ego-boost, which is rare..haha.) I have been gaining an interest in make-up a lot more lately...I don't know why....


I also wish I had MAD SKILLSZSZ and talent to make my own clothes...
Like Chanel, from junkprints: http://www.flickr.com/photos/junkprints/
check out her blog, which is awesome http://www.dookyblog.com/
Did I mention shes natural, in fact she has LOCS.
I love he works and wish I could be THAT GOOD. I just alter my clothing, but I cant actually CREATE something. =[

I also found some WICKED inspiration today...on essence magazine's site:
http://photos.essence.com/galleries/hair_repair_from_relaxed_to_natural
There is some CRAZY inspiration there, besides she is rocking a 4b or 4c looking TWA, which is hell of a lot of inspiration for me. Also, there is some really good information on how to care and treat natural hair, that I didn't know about.
For example did you know, conditioner actually isn't too great for our hair, and instead we should use essential oils. Check that link out, for reals.

s'laters!
<33
-Sharz.