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Decided to take a week off work in order to give myself a much needed break to work on my inner balance, prioritize my needs and get my life in order. The thing is - as much as money is super important;  I mean it gets you your foods, and other necessities (and unnecessities haha) - you can't let it tie you down from being happy and it's always healthy to take a nice and easy break. Be it a stay-cation, a real vacay or just 4-5 days off.

Today I felt awesome, woke up at 7AM and instead of wallowing in darkness at how cold it is outside and how unhappy I may feel - I decided to get up and make breakfast! This is easy for many, but not me. Being in a funk makes me super lazy and I end up starving myself and being grumpy. However, this morning...I said, I am going to fight this and do what makes me happy! Cooking, Music and my plants are easily accessible things that make me happy!

Last night I made Homemade DIY Makeup Brush Cleaner and I can honestly say I am impressed, so I can't wait to share that with you soon! Super easy and effective  - and economical, might I add for that #studentbudget.... With all the things you currently have in your home right now.YES RIGHT NOW IN YOUR HOME!

In any case, here's the songs I am absolutely loving this week..I plan to have these on repeat..

PlayList of Week; 01/13/16

To be completely honest I was ready for 2016 before 2016 even started. Looking up best organization methods, looking through all the hair colours I want and planning my path for early 2016...this time I think I am finally prepared for a new year, and to become the best Me I can be for myself.

First of all I rather think of these as Lifestyle Resolutions on How To Be The Best Version of Me!

Here are some of my "resolutions";

Hello again!

First,  I would like to express that I am no longer coming back to say I am back - we will just see how things go, and if I stick to blogging this time - it's real.

So now onto what this is really about! ETSY! ...Well, it is about Etsy and other small online businesses that I now frequent for all things unique and awesome! My wallet is screaming, but my happiness is through the roof! Online shopping is dangerous for me, I tend to forget that the money I use online is still the money I use everyday - I think when you stop seeing the money leaving your hands and going into a store clerk's it becomes easier to forget that you're buying tonnes of stuff.

Granted, some items are still on their merry way over to my mailbox, however I am excited to say I received one of my purchases in the mail (way earlier than promised!) from PRIMECUT! It started with my new found obsession with animal hide items, I had favourited a phone case made with animal hide - it was super cute, and Rihanna had one so obviously I had to have one as well...In any case I searched all over etsy but it looks like within a year of not seeing it, I had to pass up and move on, and I came across PRIMECUT and ToniMay.


Let me say that I will be a loyal buyer to PRIMECUT, since they delivered my stuff almost RIGHT AWAY and it wasa supposed to get to me by December,4 and arrived from Portland to Toronto on November 25th. Thank you...as for ToniMay, I am not sure if it's cause they are making my item or something, but it hasn't even been sent out yet.

So for now I will just review PRIMECUT since it's here and I love it...

Hey, so we are just going to have to get used to the fact that I DO NOT POST REGULARLY. It's not my intention, it just happens. I have been super busy and such - but I thought that the past few days (months even, but ain't no body got any actual time for that) were very bloggable. Blog-worthy.

Now, I know no one really reads this blog anymore (laughs to myself), but if anyone were to take a gander I do want people to stay inspired. This blog since it's birth has been about, well it's been about me - but in the likes of that it has been about my evolution from being too shy to take a stand, or too worried about letting myself be me - which is why this blog was supposed to be my emancipation. Then at 20/21 I decided this was going to be a recollection of Extraordinary moments in my new emancipated life. So here we go -

Well, I will let you in on a not-so-secret secret.  When you want something you should get it. If you want to be somewhere in X amount of time, you should positively seek it out. If you know you are good at something, you should find ways make that your calling - and let people know that THIS is what you're good at and they will hire you. Key to this is :

1. Confidence
2. Knowledge
3. Determination
4. Attitude

Confidence and Attitude may be mistaken as the same thing, but they most definitely are not. Confidence is fine, but if your attitude is not the best then - why on earth would any body on this planet want to hang out with you? Besides me of course, cause I have made friends with one or two miserable souls - with great intentions and they're really fantastic people...haha. Not everyone will give you the time to redeem yourself though.

Positive outlooks = Positive results.
That is the big fat secret - that wasn't so secret at all.

There are people who really don't believe in themselves though, I really had to show someone that its not as corny as it sounds! Just see yourself doing that thing. Do not think about all the reasons why it cannot happen - just think about what matters to you. To give you a hint - what matters to you is how you will get there and overcome all those annoying hurdles.Yes, there are times when you can be "over it", obviously because you're a human being, but don't let that attitude get in the way of what you want.

Moral of the story is:
This thing you want? It is actually right there. If you wholeheartedly believe in what you are doing and what you are and what you can accomplish. You'll be alright.

Peace & Love everyone!

It's sore but it's not sure whether it wants to really hurt you or not.  -_-

Okay so anyway, 

It's Sunday and as much as I'd like to take this day to relax..I have school stuff to do. I finally took some time to drink and eat with coworkers after work last night. It was actually pretty nice, besides the fact that we went for drink after work ...AT OUR PLACE OF EMPLOYMENT. 

It would have been much better if it were Montana ' s or something, cause our managers were just like...staring at us...and stuff.

Super weird.

But I enjoyed the hour spent.

In other news,
Seriously. I need to go back to the gym. But I also need new shoes. I realize that when I make irrational calls and decisions I tend to....

Not think about it all the way through.

So I need to basically get a bunch of new footwear. 1 for everyday and 2 for the gym. I took a look at those Nike free 5.0 or whatever they're called. Tried those babies on and WHOOOOOOOOO!

They are the best.  I love them. I am buying them. That is going to total like.. 135 after taxes..at minimum. 

Worth it.

Seriously.

I am very excited to go to the gym more often again. I am going to be so happy to finally go back and center myself in something that makes me feel good.

Anyway...

So tired.
Don't really have things to say lately but when I do..I will be back!

Listening to: 



I am back in school yay!

Thank goodness.

So, I  have been back in school for 3 weeks now, and as always OSAP is late and taking forever - though I have been way more on top of things by making sure I am always calling the financial aid office and getting up in there face about the stuff I care about. Instead of sitting around waiting for answers like I used to do.

Also, I am finally a permanent employee ! It feels SO GOOD to not have to worry about a contract being expired and looking for a new place of employment. So....so..good. It's a great environment and I am finally out of the sales business - so no more crazy commission (though it's still commission and tips - it's not as competitive and crazy), people work as a team and actually look out for each other - most of the time. Obviously there are the few that don't care and just want to make money to the point where they may try to steal your sales...but if too many of us notice we will all come down on you together and isolate you. It happened yesterday...

This guy kept taking orders - some were in my quadrant and some were in another couple of servers quadrants (we all have set areas to serve)...this dude had been doing it to me for 2 weeks and I was getting to the edge. I made up my mind I was either going to speak to him or just take his sales, however it seemed like more than one server had an issue with it so during down time, we all walked and talked to him about it. Cause it was just ridiculous...

In other news...

I am a lot happier I feel like my life is going in the right direction. I had been in a depression situation for some time and I just wasn't doing things according to what I needed; I had been spending a lot of my time doing what needed to be done for others and not myself. I realized that I have to put myself first and no matter how much it may hurt someone's feelings - I can't hurt myself and be depressed and cry everyday and feel sad and worthless and lacklustre forever. Sometimes you have to just know that you are worth a lot more and you deserve to make yourself happy - if you can't do it financially then you REALLY have to do it in other ways.

The entire situation took a huge toll on my face too - I am undergoing serious treatment with The Body Shop to bring my skin back to being #flawless without makeup on. (its working, and I am going to do a product review on it very very soon! :) )


That's what I am up to.

Next...

I have GOALS for 2k14!

My goal is to grow my hair to chest length! My hair is already growing pretty well lately, I just have to make sure I really take care of my hair instead of being crazy and just cutting and blow drying and doing all this crazy stuff to it.

I am going back to the gym next week! Yay!
Still shooting for a weight of 115 (minimum) - and I have been gaining...So yay some more!
Oh yeah....and you know get a awesome GPA and be super-duper great for the end of the semester. Then I am going to summer school cause..yeah. Want to bring myself up to speed.

Anyways, I have class in a little bit..but I am back to blogging and taking time out for myself to release my thoughts :)

More to come ya'lls!

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I had a Job Interview and want to look put together, and I think a cute updo is always the way to go..

So I present to you: my updo!

I used perm rods for the curls at the front and captured the wavy effect from a simple twist out.

So it is incredibly hard to find weight gain information in the search engine for me sometimes. 

Biggest headache ever...
My positivity project kind of ...went a bit...left but I got back on it!

Always going to hit bumps in the road, but I found ways to keep my head up and keep being positive no matter who is trying to disrespect or disregard me. I gave myself 60days to not only get my weight back...

But get some of my shape (if not all of it ) back. I went HAM on myself yesterday and today my body is aching SUPER hard. I cant...do...anything. ..

I just need to get a whole lot of protein in my body and recoup.  So I can get back on it tomorrow.  I technically walked uphill for 50mins today...so that can go towards my daily workout.  Lmao.

I was in SO MUCH pain when I got in.

Going to try different avenues for my fitness though.  I am sorta BROKE..so can't really make it to the gym kr anything.  However,  where there is a will there is a way. I already see some improvement anyhow.

I realized that the key  to gaining weight is to eat a lot more calories than the average person.  .

I know what your thinking.

You're looking at me like: "well, uhh DUh! How did you NOT figure that out!?"

Well because I have been eating in portions to maintain a 118 body...that it has become a habit not to overindulge.  Like I used to in high school and elementary.

But it looks like I need to get back on it.

At least to a degree.

Im pumped and ready to go though! 

I set my end date and prepared my goals and notes in my phone and on my calendar so its all in front of me..

Thus very hard to avoid and forget.

Let's do this shit!

Whooooop!

Alright headache is killing me..so I'm going to relax.

Hello, Hello..

I have a huge headache. I had a bad start to the week and it just had gotten worse til 6PM.
Cracked my phone's screen. Financial issues. School issues - none having to do with my actual academics - thankfully.. Family issues - if you read further back in this blog you will see that, my home life is always annoying as all shit. A whole bunch of issues, a lot of which are not being mentioned today, cause well - I have a damn headache and can't be bothered. The only good thing that really came out of this day was getting a job interview for Thursday Morning. I am putting all my effort into getting a job...cause unfortunately that is the root to most of my problems.

ANYWAY..

So, yeah all this negativity surrounding me and all this depression had me feeling really down and out about my life. So - I decided I would work towards positive vibes...as in ACTUALLY work ACTIVELY towards these vibes. Not just think happy thoughts. Thinking happy thoughts alone - though it is a start - doesn't really get me anywhere. I have to be DOING things I really enjoy and participating in things that make me happy. A lot of the things that usually make me happy are very out of reach...thus I have to find new ways to effectively feel better. So I thought - whatever sure, i will blog about it - at least as a way to keep tabs on myself you know?

Yeah..

S, first thing is first I made a list of everything I appreciate in life. The things that make me happy. The things that bring me joy, the things that relax me...

Here is a little bit from my list of things:



Other than all of that, I am very grateful for another opportunity to at least have an interview with a job that has no commission! I am going to do everything I can in order to bag that one job there. Haha. ...sigh.

Other than that, I am incredibly tired and ready for bed now. I had a telephone interview with H&M last week Wednesday, so if all goes well, I may get an e-mail from them as well, however I am not having high expectations or anything. Every time I hype up an interview I had, it never turns out the way I had thought so... I will just have no comment. Plan for the morning is to wake up and do my laundry - make some food and keep applying to new jobs on the daily.

Every time I feel negativity or painful thoughts I will go back to my list of happy things and think about them, meditate on them and block out anything and everything else around me with the love and appreciation I have for everything  I had mentioned.

Review the things that make me happy every morning when you wake up and right before bed.

I remember when I was in Elementary - I was a very God Fearing young girl who prayed every night before bed - I remember that every time I prayed, before I asked for anything I made sure to be thankful of what I had already and thankful for even the smallest positivity I had throughout the day. Think of it like that. If you aren't religious, just think on those things - and if you are religious - I feel like that was a very good practice, that keeps you humble and down to earth about what reality is and what you need, want, and have.

ANYWAY.. I will be back with STEP 2 soon enough!

Peaceeee.