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Biggest headache ever...
My positivity project kind of ...went a bit...left but I got back on it!

Always going to hit bumps in the road, but I found ways to keep my head up and keep being positive no matter who is trying to disrespect or disregard me. I gave myself 60days to not only get my weight back...

But get some of my shape (if not all of it ) back. I went HAM on myself yesterday and today my body is aching SUPER hard. I cant...do...anything. ..

I just need to get a whole lot of protein in my body and recoup.  So I can get back on it tomorrow.  I technically walked uphill for 50mins today...so that can go towards my daily workout.  Lmao.

I was in SO MUCH pain when I got in.

Going to try different avenues for my fitness though.  I am sorta BROKE..so can't really make it to the gym kr anything.  However,  where there is a will there is a way. I already see some improvement anyhow.

I realized that the key  to gaining weight is to eat a lot more calories than the average person.  .

I know what your thinking.

You're looking at me like: "well, uhh DUh! How did you NOT figure that out!?"

Well because I have been eating in portions to maintain a 118 body...that it has become a habit not to overindulge.  Like I used to in high school and elementary.

But it looks like I need to get back on it.

At least to a degree.

Im pumped and ready to go though! 

I set my end date and prepared my goals and notes in my phone and on my calendar so its all in front of me..

Thus very hard to avoid and forget.

Let's do this shit!

Whooooop!

Alright headache is killing me..so I'm going to relax.

• Energy: 189 calories
• Protein: 9.6 g
• Carbs:  27 g
• Fat: 4.3 g

Cause I can be lazy... I like to at least do the basics and since they're mostly easy to do, it gets out of the way.

So I am gonna work it off.

Alright, so since it's spring I am going to try and RE-ENERGIZE MYSELF.

So, what it BE!!?!
I'm just here listening to some beats, and waiting for my girls to get ready so we can go KARAOKE-ing. I am really tired and hungry.

I have nothing important to say, once again. Im going to buy some coconut (or almond) oil today, at the grocer, before we head on our way. Today was BLASTED HOT. I was dying in my grey skinnies and thick hair.. MY LAWD.

You know what's childish?
Boasting. I hate boasters. People who like to emphasise on how much of something they have, I mean.. there knowing your goods and your bads, but then there showig off to people how much of this you have... its almost like the Boaster is trying to tell THEMSELVES how great they are, instead of directing it to the person. They are indirectly trying to nurse thier self-esteem.

Well, I used to think my self-esteem was ON POINT. I know my flaws, however nowadays I can't really seem to completely hold grasp of my greats. You know? But I guess everyone feelslike that at times. I guess I should give this Boaster the benefit of the doubt, I mean they are usually SO quiet about thier features. I seldomly ever wear make-up, I don 't wear padded bras, and I feel just fine.
So maybe I should lay off this one. And give the Boaster thier shine, and glory. You know?

Maybe its my turn to feel "jealous"or something.... I don't know. I'm not jealous.... I just thought what the Boaster said was a bit unnessacary. I mean, it had nothing to do with the conversation. See, I don't boast, I just be silent... and if someone compliments I say thanks, or change the subject.

No one hates compliments, I know I don't.

All, I'm saying is... threres no need to randomly talk about how many Chickens you have during a conversation about Civil Rights or something.
It bothered me.

Next: My ex-boyfriend called to tell me about some white girl who asked him out to the movies... here's how that conversation went:

A. Grant: So this girl Victoria was like "My friend wants to take you out to the movies..."
Me: So.... are you going to go?
No...
Why?
Cause.
Well, cause why?
I don't know... I don't want to.
Why?
Too much money.
Uh, you work 16.50 an hour. Im sure you can spare 6 dollars.
Yeah well.. i dont want to.
Okay, whats the real reason?
...
......hm..
Ok. She's too hot. Im going to be looking at her breasts all day, and wanting to do stuff, and I dont want it to be that way.

Oh. Okay... right.

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So that conversations over...

Next day(last night):
Hello?
Hey! Wa pop?
Uh, nothing... Im EXTRA shocked about the MJ thing, did you hear?
Yeah.
----blah blah blah, MJ, MJ, MJ----
So...
So.
Were you thinking about me?
Yeah actually.
What about?
Well, i was wondering if - (he cuts me off)
If I went out with that white chick to the movies right?
....what? No. I didn't even remember that actually. I wasn't even thinking about it.
Sure.
I'm serious. You just reminded me. Why do you even think I would ask that?
Cause, that's what ex-girls do.
Well, I already knew you wouldn't go.
How would you know?
Cause, I just do.
Hm...
But I guess I'll ask anyways... did you go to the movies with her?
No.
Did you chill with her at all?
No.
Why not?
Didn't want to...
Hmm. why?

Happy Mothers Day to ALL the mommies out there...
You are all very much appreciated. A lot of people dont know this but women go through a lot of shit during the pregnancies and labours! So if you haven't done it already, make sure you tell your mom: "Yo, you da best, i love you, i appreciate you in my life, and i hope you stay put in my life for a long time."
:)

I did a cool thing with my fro, however my camera's dead so i went to charge it....so the photos will be up soon.

I made the best strawberry/ melon/ cantaloupe with fibre boost and condensed milk smoothie today! It tastes BOMB! I'd give ingredients but.... i literally was bored and threw fruits in there...along with two teaspoons of powdered fibre, just to make myself feel more healthy.



The crush has not called back yet...but I'm alright with it, I'm not, like, crying -sniff, sniff.- (i kidd, i kidd) But seriously, I'm sure he's busy...

...

ehem...

Well, whatever...I didnt really care, the whole thing was a personal experiment. Me being able to make the first move...and it turned out alright....

-sigh-
Alright well, I'm outy!

s'later!
<333

-M.M

Oh lawd!
My hair is EXTRA dense man! There is hair ALL OVER my head! And the coils or SERIOUS and the shrinkage is EXTRA SERIOUS! I feel like it's getting thicker every day. I like wake up in the morning and i'm like "HOLY! Did it grow?" but maybe thats just me not being used to touching a full head of naps every orning. Its like being newly married, or just moving in with your boo.
You aren't used to them in the early morning.

A N Y W A Y S . . .


Whenever - KiD CuDi


So, i gained about 4 pounds this week...which isn't huge deal for me, however i don't want to gain ANYMORE.

So i remembered a while back when I was chubby (because i was chubby last year) I went on yahoo answers and asked a question about how to stay fit. This is the answer I got:

a low-carb, low fat, high-fiber diet is the best diet. this is a sample menu, about 1200 calories the whole day. you will not spend a lot, and you will not feel hunger.

breakfast:
1 pc toast / sliced bread
1 pc banana or apple
1 glass of milk
tea or coffee with low cal sweetener (or sugar)

10 am snack:
1 banana or apple OR
10 pcs of berries OR
1 cup popcorn
1 glass lemonade or juice

lunch:
open sandwich (no bread on top) containing:
1 slice of smoked ham/or turkey since Sharz doesn't eat pork (about 60 grams)
tomatoes, lettuce, onion
1 glass juice/lemonade/tea
(i did this yesterday except i had an ice cap instead of lemonade or tea)
4pm snack:
3 pcs of oreo cookies OR
1 palmful peanuts OR
any medium sized fruit

dinner:
1 100-gram cut of lean meat (if chicken, no skin)
1 1/2 golfball size serving mashed potato or pasta
up to 2 cups of green veggies or steamed carrots and peas
dessert: any medium fruit OR
1 golfball size of low fat ice cream or sorbet
1 cup of coffee or tea

you can do variations of this sample plan. very low cost (not totally no cost of course), and low maintenance. you will not feel any hunger at any time of the day. the best thing is, these foods are definitely available in your own house, probably also the things you eat daily. and you will not deprive yourself so binging and mood swings will be avoided.

throw in some exercise while you're at it: jogging, weightlifting for muscle development, pilates for flexibility (there are websites that show some basic pilates moves), powerwalking for stamina building. even regular day to day activities help - walking to the bus station, bicycling to the supermarket, mopping the floor, you can even do some jogging in-place while watching TV. remember that a well balanced diet and regular exercise is still the best. not only will you be kept trim, you will also stay healthy.

remember that there are no quick-fix diets and exercises. starving yourself and pushing yourself to extreme exhaustion would only lead to even more dangers, and a higher medical cost. the best way to achieve your goal and to get a healthier body is to incorporate a well balanced diet and enough exercise in your daily life.

Source(s):
i am a professional fitness instructor.

Hope this may help someone else who's trying to get fit for late spring and early summer.
You have to start this ish from right now, or at least i feel as if it is a good idea to.

-Sharz
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Okay, so sometimes I feel a bit overwhelmed by the SLEW of information that I get during my journey toward natural hair, and this is what makes me feel not so ready. I don't want to go into this and not know what I'm doing, just having a bunch of information at my disposal and not knowing when to apply them to myself and how exactly. It is quite frustrating when you're dealing with a texture you haven't dealt with for around 10 years!!

So I went searching again for some examples of the tips I got from the Myth Slasher yesterday! =]

Okay, so the first thing on my mind was: What is considered a 'healthy' hair regimen?
So I went searching, and I feel this is my favourite, and I got this from 'Black Girl With Long Hair' a long time ago, and just remembered that I bookmarked the page.
Then I remembered, that I already knew about the Castor oil thing, I just probably forgot that I knew...
-sigh-
Alright so, there's this girl named Brittany, and this is her interview...
http://blackgirllonghair.blogspot.com/2008/12/after-year-and-half.html
And, OH MY GOSH, you should see how much hair she has after a year and a half!!
I was taken back, like someone knocked the air out of me. Maybe to some people they're like "oh whatever" but to me, that is some NOOOYYCE THICK BEAUTIFUL HAIR RIGHT THERE....SON!

So yeah. Read that, I really advise that you read that. Seriously, if you haven't already.
Read that.


Anyways, I went searching some more, on google and found another place that gives you some sort of Template, you can call it, for buying products for your own healthy hair regimen...

"Your regimen, in order to be successful, should contain products that work together to address your two most important hair needs: moisture and protein. It should be basic, flexible, and be able to evolve based on your ever-changing hair needs.

The key to building a solid regimen is finding your own hair tolerance. The information in this article will help you develop the solid foundation you need to successfully build your healthy hair regimen.

One Size Does Not Fit All
As you progress in your hair knowledge, you will soon discover that very few things about hair care are sound gospel. Even the tips in this article are only presented as guides and suggestions to help you on your way! The simple fact is that hair is seasonal. Our hair experiences changes from day to day and week to week depending on a myriad of influencing factors including: humidity, hard water, and bitter cold or sizzling hot temperatures. Hair that was thoroughly moisturized and hydrated one week may become excessively dry and lifeless the next. A regimen that does not take these circumstances into consideration is ultimately a recipe for failure.

Let's Begin!
Now, I will introduce you to the important factors you must consider when choosing the products to support your hair growing regimen. There are two main types of product categories: protein based products and moisture based products. A rule of thumb is: The more you do to your hair chemically, the more of both protein and moisture you will need. The following sections will briefly outline the basic product components of healthy hair regimens based on these categories. A more indepth understanding of protein and moisture and their usefulness for the hair can be found here. "
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Before I copy and paste the rest, this girl has chemically processed hair. So....if you could just ignore some of those things that apply to the relaxed hair..it should all work out the same. (but I'll still try to figure out if there's much of a difference)

"
Moisture

Hair needs water to maintain its elasticity, or ability to stretch. Since water is the ultimate moisturizer, water-based products are best for really getting the greatest moisture benefit.

Moisturizers are simply products that are water-based and nourish your hair deep within the strand. Products with moisturizing properties tend to be your conditioners and other specific moisturizer sprays or creams. Moisturizers may also contain large amounts of protein, but these protein based moisturizers do not have the moisturizing benefit that moisture-based moisturizers have. Check labels to gauge protein content. Good moisturizers will not contain cheap, filler ingredients like petrolatum, mineral oil, or lanolin. Avoid products that claim moisturizing benefits and contain these ingredients. There is nothing moisturizing about them! Petrolatum and mineral oil are sealants that seal out the precious moisture our hair needs.

Sealing in your Moisturizers:

Our hair naturally contains moisture, but because our hair is also naturally porous, keeping the moisture inside is a difficult task. Providing additional sources of outside moisture, or external moisture supplementation, is a must for black hair care. Water molecules and moisture from these supplemental moisturizing products easily pass into the hair shaft, but they pass out just as easily. The moisture you apply needs to held in by something. Oil.

Natural oils like jojoba, olive, carrot, or coconut oil seem to work best."

credit paid: http://www.associatedcontent.com/article/278612 & http://www.associatedcontent.com/article/288340/hair_regimen_building_for_newbies.html?cat=69

I think I may look around for some more later..
Thanks to all the brand new subscribers! You really don't have to...but i guess you already knew that...

S'laterzz!!
<33
-Sharz!